Confidence

I was asked the other day by a friend to name ten things I'm good at. I really thought hard when asked this question. After about 7.5 minutes when I could only come up with four I started listing dumb things such as eating, not doing the laundry, etc... For the rest of the day I was bumming . Why was it so hard to name at least ten things I'm good at. I am usually a fairly humble person. Lying awake all night thinking of this it finally dawned on me. The reason I can't name what I'm good at is because I concentrate way too much on the things I'm NOT good at. It's what I'm NOT good at that bugs me the most.

I can program a great Sunday morning experience for our kids, but I'll drive home thinking of a conversation I had that morning where I didn't quite say the right thing. I will do a moderately decent job organizing an event; but I'm up at 3am thinking of that one really stupid thing I did (or maybe it was a dozen stupid things I said....)

Does anyone else do this?

I read Hebrews 10:35-36 this week, I am reminded that my confidence is in God, and it is needed to endure through the end of God's will. I am learning to have confidence that God knows all my inabilities in ways that even I haven't even realized, and in spite of all of them he continues to give me opportunities to carry out His will. God doesn't focus on what I'm bad at, why should I? How can I stretch myself by only thinking of what I can't do rather than what I can. After praying through this, I can now name eleven things I'm good at (for the sake of humility I can't give you my list)

Lord, help me to look past the mistakes and errors of my life and help me to see your hand working in my life. Help me to endure in confidence to the end of your will for my life.